YAOI IS the BEST!!!!

Nothingness

2007-10-10T22:42:29Z

While I'm sitting here at the school library, I thought I'll just post something short. It's been a while, and I think I just got lazy. After what happened half a year ago, I think I just stopped bothering about so many things I was involved in. Besides, I'm getting used to wasting my time *sigh*
I really was hoping to update this journal a while back and restart on my novel, however, I'm reluctant to do so because I'm starting to lose my plot bunnies. With the exception of three of them who are going to stick with me until my cravings for vampires, angels and demons die out for good. I'm also toning down on drawing, especially CG, which I consider a very bad thing seeing as I'm working on compete with Heise *lol* Such arrogance on my end.
I know this is pretty much just a post to ramble, and I want to apologize to a few of my friend on lj since I haven't been around lately. But I hope you all know I still love you all *kiss kiss*
Well, I'm going to finish my paper and then go to the beach later. I came to UCI because it's close to the beach, but ever since school started this year, I still haven't been to the beach... *hmmm* thus I ponder if I really love the beach as much as I say I do.
Either way, I hope I can be back more often in the future. Now with a mac and a partition, I have both the mac side and the xp side, I'm used to doing work via the mac side, and I hardly use the xp, which means I can't us photoshop for CGs nor can I go on to IRC as often. I do really regret that, but I do try *sigh* No I don't.
I'll work on whatever I can to get back from time to time, but rl is really taking me apart.
Well... Enough rambling, hopefully, next time things will get better :)

mika_lav @ 2007-09-13T00:16:00

2007-09-13T07:19:16Z

I would like to take this time to say that I have actually made it on time as of CA time before 12AM, the present for Iron dog, So Happy B-Day DEAR! *Yay*
Seriously, when I realized 2 days ago that her birthday was coming up, I realized that I had to pull my lazy ass to work and finish that drawing I wanted to give her as a suprise.
Thank Lucifer that it's finally done, and it's not all that bad. LOL. I think Iron dog should know this is from the BBE series, although I don't remember the chp, but this is a Hakuyuu (Typo again, I guess) and Hakkai one. I think it should be 24, 25, or 26 :/ And Darn it I want it post now! So I won't be checking. LOL
I also Hope that the email gets send over. Will be working on it.
Now... Back to my dead self
Oh... Before I forget, the present
http://s127.photobucket.com/albums/p150/Yuukiba/?action=view&current=Present.jpg
since lj is being a mean b*tch and won't let me upload pictures... this is the best I can do T__T

mika_lav @ 2007-07-06T17:21:00

2007-07-07T00:23:19Z

I'm the maintainer of Kadaj_lucifer which you joined. I'm sorry to tell you this, but I was going to delete this group because it should be inactivated *sigh*. I never did that because I got confused and almost deleted my other group as well. I'm sorry for the misunderstanding. And if you would like, I think the group that you might have wanted to join should be http://community.livejournal.com/yaoi_fantasy/ It has the same content, except for the fact that it's active. If you would like to do so, please follow the rules and join the group. I will be glad to add you. Thank you very much and sorry for the misunderstanding.
Your truly,
Mika

P.S How do I delete this group?

I'm back~!

2007-06-22T15:56:06Z

Yes, I get my compy back. Hopefully things goes alright for a while now. *sigh* Now I'm quite sure I did make a few promises of things. The first order of business, finish my translation. *lol* I'll neglect the long missing updates. I shall be catching up with my cgs and my promised artworks. I think I had to do 2 doujins *lol* Will be on them soon enough
It's nice to be back :)

So I'm going to be gone for a while sigh

2007-04-02T14:51:13Z

Because of recent family issues, I suppose I'm going to be out of commission for quite some time. I'll try to get myself back soon *lol* until everything gets settled at home, I really am not sure if I can actually get back. *pinches self* Working on things though. Life really suck and guess I need to get off my ass and hope that things turn out for the best. *mutters* I'll get back to my drawings soon enough. Yes, I know, I promised many people I would be doing that but never got a chance to. When I'm at home, I'll do more things by hand so don't mind me. Hopefully things settle sooon enough and I would be back *hugs all friends*

Another tattoo babe :)

2007-03-31T02:03:37Z

Okay then, this one is still part of my collection of the tattooed babes *it's much loved* Yes, I did say I would do one on feilong simply because I did Hallwil, and what the heck, we all know I love them just the same. I'm a very fair person after all *snickers* Yeah, right.
Anyways, this one turned out better than expected. It took about 4 hours, with no breaks in between. Yes, I didn't take a break and managed to finish it all today. Hooray for me. *more guys to drool on?*
Anyhoo, the preview still has a tattoo on *lol* Come on, there is a reason why it's in that series. However, just to make sure that the tattoo doesn't become the cause of confusion, I also saved a version before the addition of the tattoo. That might look much more like Feilong. Still, I truly thought that this tattoo is very matching.
*Preview*

Somehow the bigger version makes him look really really feminine, but *sigh* I really really tried. I'll see if i get time in the future to make him look less feminine

Well, comments? Does this one look more like Feilong than my previous one on Hallwil? I think so *lol* I always think differently than most people

mika_lav @ 2007-03-29T22:59:00

2007-03-30T06:11:41Z

Well, I'm on a roll here aren't I? Here is another CG. I have this depressing feeling that I'm not getting much better. *pokes the eye* But then again, you are making me feel more accomplished. For some reason, the eyes always turns out okay, where as the rest of the face doesn't *sigh* But there is a hair improvement what not.
This was suppose to be another one of my tattoo eye series, however, I got side tracked maybe? The guys looks a lot like Hallwil from Crimson Spell. Even the eye color is found on one colored page (though it needs to be verified, because it really looks strange). But now he's got a TATTOO! Good for him (or not)
here is the preview

Then comes the disaster. As we all know from my two previous post on my journal, it's always a disaster. *sigh* But it'll have to do *lol* The cut is to make sure that no one's eyes would get hurt
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Thoughts anyone? comments on whether or not it looks like Hallwil? I thought he does, of course, without the tattoo that is, but the tattoo makes him sexier doesn't it? *ponders*

Happy B-day to Cheza

2007-03-29T05:05:12Z

Internet thus lives!
*lol* Okay, dear Cheza-Chan, xxtorturedxx, I'm sorry, but I don't know how to do all the fansy stuff, so you will have to bear with me here *lol*
Happy b-day, and I hope I finished this on time hon :3
With lots of love, I present you
the preview

Yes, you have to click the linky. Personally, let's just say that "the eye" is the best. *shrugs* So I'm nuts
May you have a nice year and lots more happy days to come *hugs*
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Okay so the bigger version is a little crappier for some reason, *sigh* I tried with the lame short amount of time *sweat*

Comments will make me happy :)

mika_lav @ 2007-03-27T22:28:00

2007-03-28T05:30:41Z

What does your drawing say about YOU?

Okay, for the most part it is true, but i'm not a very happy little person! *stares at self in the mirror.* Nope, just feel so depressed sometimes that I thought maybe I would like to see a sunny day :p

mika_lav @ 2007-03-27T21:31:00

2007-03-28T04:33:59Z

so I did expect this... But not that much for social, we should all know that I lack social abilities :p

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Literature Nerd Does sitting by a nice cozy fire, with a cup of hot tea/chocolate, and a book you can read for hours even when your eyes grow red and dry and you look sort of scary sitting there with your insomniac appearance? Then you fit this category perfectly! You love the power of the written word and it's eloquence; and you may like to read/write poetry or novels. You contribute to the smart people of today's society, however you can probably be overly-critical of works. It's okay. I understand.
Artistic Nerd
Anime Nerd
Drama Nerd
Social Nerd
Musician
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

mika_lav @ 2007-03-26T23:18:00

2007-03-27T06:26:44Z

Okay, so i'm a freaking "eye whore" what ever that is. I love eyes, and bite me, I love drawing them too. Okay, I admit, I love long pretty hair, but I don't know how to color them, so :p. I'm a total depression to myself and I suck. Oh well, too bad.
At least I hope that this little thing that I did in 3 hours (?) is a good enough entertainment for myself and friends for the next few days.
Yes! It's actually original! He came from Hubby Lucifer's pakage last night. Lucifer keeps on telling me that hell is crowded, and instead of kicking people out, because they won't leave on their dead soul, he had to start kicking angels out. I told him sooner or later, he will be on the kick roll, but *shrugs*
I keep on rambling these days, but then it's probably because I have so much work to do. I end up writing too much fics and never have time for anything else. It's a pain in the ass sometimes to do all things at once and not sleep. Okay, I'm sure I could bitch my way until next year if I wanted to, but... no one want to listen to ramblings. So...
here is a preview

This baby is purely done on cg, I am proud. You should see the hand sketched one... But it's too small for scanning, and it's on my STatistic notes. *sigh* But omg! Did he have gorgeous hair *dies*

Yeah, I'm pitiful, I need to get back to my paper now, they were due two days ago, and I'm still yanking my way through it now *dies* I really hope that I can just find myself a job or... If someone (stares at Lucifer) would get me home, then I won't whine this much. (Eyes Satan at the same time)

I need comments! *begs* Feedbacks please! If you know how to draw cg, please help me! I'm desperate here!!! *teary*

mika_lav @ 2007-03-04T21:36:00

2007-03-05T05:36:44Z

I just finished this, more or less to have something to be added to my newly founded lj community. Never understood why I always tried to make my life hectic like that...
Please, everyone who is my friend, be kind and pop by, I would be glad if you join. Some one want to help me out as a mod?

I did this by myself this week, which almost killed all my sleeping time. But I think it's kind of worth it.
My first CG! ^^ please be kind and comment. I need criticisms too, thank you!

Feilong only <3

My first CG?

2007-03-05T05:32:13Z

I just finished this, more or less to have something to be added to my newly founded lj community. Never understood why I always tried to make my life hectic like that...
Please, everyone who is my friend, be kind and pop by, I would be glad if you join. Some one want to help me out as a mod?
this is one of my first Cgs so please be kind to it. But comments and criticisms are needed!!!

Feilong only <3

mika_lav @ 2007-03-03T19:36:00

2007-03-04T04:01:52Z

Just to make sure that life is on the same page, I'm posting a few pictures scanned from Yamane sensei's art books from view finder.
God, I just found out from my lovely, slow, and confused friend missily thought that aki's hair was gray. Hopefully the following pics would clear out some confusion. I'm also posting some of our beloved fei, although I doubt that anyone don't know his hair color, but, hey, we love fei, so :P

don't ask why the title again, I don't like that pairing, please don't ask me why they are always placed together, because I really don't know. *sobs*

Another Pic

2007-03-04T01:06:04Z

Another picture today. Man I need to do more HW... *Stares at the 20 papers and the bio lab*
Well, I decided to post this for everyone's viewing pleasure. Please be kind to it, I'm a horrible person at doing cg. Hope you all like it, and comments are welcomed.
PS. It's from Haru wo Daiteita

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fanart by two?

2007-03-04T00:51:43Z

I know I've been a baaaaaaaaaaaaaad little girl. Oh yes, I didn't do Missily's picture for a long time. Partially because I was busy, and also because I was fixing compy and collecting backgrounds, etc. Lots of work on my end. *moans*
Well, this one is done. It didn't turn out as good as I thought, forgive me, I suck at doing cg. *shots self* If you want to see the original, it's at missily.
I won't ramble anymore and hope you all like it. Drop a few comments or two and say thanks to missily too.

mika_lav @ 2007-03-01T20:54:00

2007-03-02T04:55:51Z

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	High
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

I thought I had more pride >.>

mika_lav @ 2007-02-27T21:39:00

2007-02-28T05:40:01Z

You Are 62% Selfish

You put your own needs first, figuring if you don't take care of yourself, who will?
While this is a good philosophy to have, it wouldn't hurt you to be a tad more giving.

How Selfish Are You?

A little more realistic now, but i'm not ooooooooooooooverly selfish that much am I? maybe just arrogant? narssist

mika_lav @ 2007-02-27T21:34:00

2007-02-28T05:36:19Z

You Are Teal Green

You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you.
Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible.
While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks.
Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have.

What Color Green Are You?

Lies... either this is a lie, or I am a lie, one of us is false... *kicks the quiz*

Try it and see if you get better results *which i doubt*

Rare Find

2007-02-24T21:35:37Z

Title: Rare Find
Series: ...View Finder (Naked Truth)
Pairing: Feilong... (the other is a secret, read on)
Rating: NC-17 (be warned) No, i won't say no more
Type: Fanfic (possible continuation)
Disclaimer: I own everthing except Feilong ==
Author's summary: Just read it, for god's sake. I promise if you finish it, you won't regret it. (maybe i just say that, but still) FINISH it!!!! I promise there is a twist... that's rather interesting (noted by my beta)

I died and I still have more work to do. Please don't hate me if you don't like the person that Feilong chose. He liked the person and told me so... (maybe not) *sees fei aiming a gun at me* Well, hope you all like this :)
A Hugeeeeeeeeeee Thanks to my lovely beta Kaz :)

Rare Find

~ Liu Feilong (P.O.V.)

I sat in my accustomed leather sofa, feeling rather disgusted. It has only been three days since Chinese New Year, and I told everyone to stay home for a week; I wasn’t planning to turn everyone into a workaholic like myself. I stared at my desk, annoyed, wondering why I’m still at work today. I was thinking that maybe I should have stayed home, but I didn’t want to see Akihito, and I doubt that I would later in the day. He reminded me of Asami, and that would only trace back to a long history filled with events that I would rather have forgotten. I picked up the phone to call Tao, just so he would not be waiting up for me to eat dinner, again. I don’t plan on going home today, and it would be best to warn Tao. Last time, he waited for me to return for dinner, which was rather foolish, because I didn’t get back until the next morning; I wasn’t too pleased by that nonetheless. A child his age should eat and sleep properly.

After I got off the phone, I summoned Yoh to prepare my car. I suppose I will go to the Peninsula Hotel today. What I probably need most right now is a place to eat in peace. Although it’s not often, but I think I need to get my mind off the fact that this whole week will be the celebration of Chinese New Year. I ran my hand through my hair as I sighed and walked out of my office. There is no point in staying here anymore. It’s distracting.

I walked down stairs as I stared at the interior structure of the office building.

Mina once told me that she disapproved of me working here because of her frank distaste in the building itself. She has a strong grudge against gold if nothing else. She is the embodiment of darkness if nothing else; she prefers her place to be a living hell hole. I told her that it would be pointless to keep it so dark – it’s not like her husband would go back to her for that insane reason - but she ignored me nonetheless. I haven’t seen her in quite a while now, so I really can’t be sure if she’s changed her ways, but I wouldn’t bet on that.

I stepped out of the elevator and entered the parking lot, making my way towards my car. I told Yoh to drive me today. I don’t feel like driving today, and I doubt that I could transport myself to the Peninsula Hotel safely and soundly in my current mood. But just as I opened the door to the passenger’s seat, a small and blurry object dashed right in front of the car. The commodity paused for a second, in a retreating motion, with fear in its eyes. I couldn’t tell exactly what “it” was, but “it” wasn’t human. The creature, or so it seems, had exceptionally bright and intense eyes, which were very enormous in size. The color of “its” eyes was analogous to that of green tea, which was unexpected. “It” tilted its head, then finally flexed and stood up in “its” normal form.

I looked at the creature a bit closer, and suddenly realized that contrary to what I was thinking, that creature was in fact a human, and a very beautiful one at that. Her characteristics were similar to that of a panther, but one with clear and sparkling green eyes.

She was adorning a black leather coat with exceptionally tight leather pants. I couldn’t decipher what type of top she was wearing, but she looked extremely cold in her skimpy attire. Although Hong Kong isn’t exactly the coldest place on Earth, but it was still in the middle of February, and the dusk is slowly setting. She faintly shivered when a light breeze blew through her hair, but she didn’t budge nonetheless.

In a swift movement, she was standing right before my very eyes. She stared at me with a hard look and asked, “Are you Liu Feilong, the leader of the Hong Kong Triad?”

Yoh had already gotten himself out of the car; two guns in hand, both aiming at the girl. I held a finger up to cease him from any further movement. He needn’t to inspect this girl; I don’t sense any threat in her.

“Yes.” I answered calmly. She really didn’t seem harmful at all in my opinion, and I can only hope that I didn’t misjudge her intentions.

She nodded a little and suddenly smiled. She ran her hand through her jet black shoulder-length hair and uttered a small noise. I wasn’t quite sure what she said, but it sounded very foreign.

“Will you fuck me?”

I almost choked on air when those words slipped from her ample crimson red lips. A smirk formed on her face as she raised an eyebrow at me.

“Well?” She looked at me tauntingly yet seductively.

I suppose there was no reason for me to say no, so I shrugged and nodded my head. She smiled at me and grabbed my arm with lightning speed. There is something peculiar about this girl, she isn’t normal; if I can’t detect her movements, either she really isn’t human, or she is someone who has been in my field longer than I have. I glanced at her head and pondered, but she seemed too innocent for that. At least, she appeared to be.

She sat in the back seat, dragging me along with her. She slid to the edge of the left side of the seat and tilted her head back while she rested her head on the cushion part of the seat. I shut the door and directed Yoh to still go to the Peninsula Hotel before I turned back around to inquire how she would know me. Not that that’s of any importance, after all, almost every person in Hong Kong knew me. But as soon as I opened my mouth, I realized that she was already fast asleep. For someone whose movement was sharp enough to be undetectable, she really lets her guard down. I shrugged it off and began to study her features.

Studying her up close as she slept silently, I began to ponder about her ethnicity. She appeared Japanese, with very adorable features, and her lips slightly parted while her head tilted sideways, she resembled an innocent child. But if I recalled correctly, she looked rather sharp when I first laid eyes on her. She abruptly shifted in her sleep, as if she was bothered by a dream; she frowned a little, and then relaxed her muscles. For a split second there, she looked almost full Korean. She mumbled something quietly to herself. The gesture almost made me break out in laughter, but I didn’t want to wake her up. At least, not yet… She seemed fatigued and worn out, and the last thing I need is to buy myself a prostitute who would fall asleep in the middle of having sex.

It suddenly hit me. She didn’t seem at all like a prostitute who is desperate for money, nor does she seem like one of those sluts I’ve seen on the streets. She looked too intelligent for that, however, too naïve. The innocent aura around her made her appear as if this is her first time doing something like this. And it may well be true. I’ve known plenty of girls and boys who would seek out for someone that they like or think are rich enough to take their first night. Whether she falls under that caliber or not, I’m not exactly sure, but I don’t really care. She seems harmless, and I don’t mind having someone take my mind off the fact that this is still the Chinese New Year week. I chuckled as it dawned on me that she managed to distract me from my current situation for about ten minutes, which was longer than anyone else who has ever attempted. She’s unexpected, that’s for sure.

She didn’t stir in her dream, nor did she make any sounds. After she placed herself in that position, she remained dead asleep as we headed directly towards the Peninsula Hotel. Once we arrived at our destination, just as I was about to wake her up, her eyes suddenly snapped open as she took in her surroundings in a swift glance too quick to even notice. Then, the hint of indifference that I saw in her eyes disappeared, and in its place, a cute smile formed. She tilted her head and stared up at me. She didn’t say anything, and I wasn’t about to inquire her to give a proper answer.

She chuckled humbly, scratched her head and whispered at a minimal voice, “Sorry ‘bout that, I fell asleep.” Suddenly, she paused and covered her mouth, as if she did something very inappropriate. She then looked at me and smiled. “I didn’t want to sleep the whole night through, and I thought that it would be for the best that I nap for a while. I hope that you didn’t mind me sleeping.”

Her tone changed from a casual, warm, and childish sentiment to a composed line. I was slightly taken back by her drastic change of tone, but it didn’t quite bother me as much as she being able to wake up so fast with the spark in her eyes when she speculated her current location. I wasn’t sure if she was just wondering how much she can get from me, or if there is something else that she wants. She isn’t a simple woman.

“No, I don’t mind you sleeping at all. In fact, I don’t know if I would be in the mood for any exercise today.” I don’t know where that bit of humor came from, but it slipped through my lips before I even had a chance to think.
She chuckled and closed her eyes for a second before saying anything. “I never knew that you had a little sense of humor.”

“Do you know me? Well, I mean.” I couldn’t help but wonder how she would know if I’m the type to be serious or humorous.

“Well, it’s on your face you know.” She only smiled and gave me a brief answer. But for some reason, I can tell that she was only bluffing with me. It was beginning to irritate me. I didn’t need someone to check up on me and try to figure out what kind of a person I am, nor do I need anyone to attempt to dig up any information regarding me. But I didn’t want to say that out right, I’ll keep my eyes on her, and we’ll see just where we get with this.

She sat there and ate for hours without moving. She was a slow eater. Too slow, in fact. She sat there nibbling on her food as the chef placed the pieces of freshly boiled lobster on her dish. I can tell that the chef was getting a tad impatient, it’s pretty obvious. The living lobsters and fresh fish were placed in a cart right next to our table. The chef took out the live lobster and boiled it in alcohol, it was the most crisp and juicy dish in the world. I never minded coming here when I began to remember the past. This place is peaceful, calming, and the food is delicious. Our table overlooked the Atlantic Ocean, and I enjoyed the scenery. The ocean was a mix of Persian blue and sapphire, which corresponded well with the cloudless sky. This place always made me feel free. It was a bit cold out, but we only stayed outside for a few minutes before we went in and sat down for our meal. I stared at her as she ate. She was slowly getting on my bad side. She didn’t order a lot, nor did she eat too much, but she was taking forever.

It seemed as if she could read my mind, after she finished the piece of fish that was on her plate, she put down her silverware and said that was enough. I asked her if she wanted deserts, she only smiled and asked for a cup of coffee. Pure dark espresso is not exactly what most girls her age would drink. Shouldn’t she order a cake or something? Or is she one of those girls who are afraid of getting fat. I looked at her body, slender, but with the word over added. She needed to gain a little more weight, she looked so petite and lean that I had the feeling that I could have crushed her with one grip.

“Okay, I had enough. I think we should go now.” She gave me a small smile and tilted her head again. I began to realize that she does that a lot, and it looked rather cute.

“Sure.” I handed the waiter my credit card and sat back to relax my body for a second before the long night that I’m anticipating. For some reason, she seemed interesting. She caught my attention without any words. Her actions, her eyes, her petite figure, all those things and much more distracted me. I suddenly, for the first time in my life, had the strange feeling of truly wanting this one. She would be interesting to keep.

“What’s your name?” I suddenly remembered that I still don’t know a thing about her.

“My name… You can call me Yuuki. If you ever need to find me anywhere, you can reach me with that name.” She smiled and looked at me. She gave me the subtle impression that she was reluctant to tell me that name, but that would be the one that would have to do. Either she didn’t want reveal her true identity because she wants something from me, or she is just a common slut who didn’t need others to know her real name. I had to scratch out the second option the second it formed in my head, it’s impossible.

I wanted to tell her that name was a man’s name, and I also wanted to enquire her for her real name this time, but the look in her eyes told me otherwise. Something about her eyes told me that it would be best if I kept my mouth shut. I never had this feeling before, not even with Yanzhui, but there is something peculiar about this one…

As we left for the elevator, she suddenly said something that I would have never expected. “Feilong, you don’t mind me calling you that right?” I shook my head a little. “Well, Feilong, since the dinner and the hotel adds up to about five thousand dollars, I think that would be enough for the night. I’m rather pleased that I was well fed and will be staying here of all places in Hong Kong.”

How did she know how much this place cost? I knew in an instant that she wasn’t a normal person. There is something that she is hiding from me, and I want to find out. She is like a poison ivy, filled with poison and mystery. I want to get to know her; I want to be able to find out what she is hiding from me and crush her. I had an intuition that this would be the most fascinating night in a very long time…

“I’ll go shower first!” She shouted out the second we got in the room. I raised an eyebrow as I turned around to look at her. She jerked a little and covered her mouth again. I suddenly realized that she does that every times she shows her emotion. That’s quite intriguing.

“Sorry, I was wondering if I may go take the shower before you.” She asked me shyly. “Sure.” I really didn’t mind who went to take the shower first. As long as I get to know her a little better afterwards, I don’t mind at all.

She came out in less than ten minutes with water still dripping down her hair. The oversized bathrobe made her look like a stranded child in white. I couldn’t help but chuckle as I imagined having sex with her. Three hours ago, I would have expected that she was nothing more than a slut with a little more self-esteem than others. But after the meal, I was thinking that maybe she worked for Asami or Mikhail. Now, I can’t imagine her to be anything but a sixteen year old who has no clue as to what kind of situation she placed herself into when she decide to ask “will you fuck me” three hours ago.

I walked into the bathroom, and took a quick shower not much longer than hers even though I normally prefer to enjoy the steamy shower as a relaxation for my body. I dried myself and tossed the robe over my shoulder and walked out.

After I shut the door to the bathroom, I turned my head towards the direction of the bed. She looked like an innocent angel as she cuddled there in the corner of the sofa, sleeping, yet again. The oversized robe made her look like a naïve child, but also a pure saint. I tried to walk towards her without making a sound, but when I was about 10 feet away, she suddenly jerked her head up and peered into my eyes. I paused. I never knew anyone in my life who had such an accurate sense of hearing, or if not hearing, then the ability to sense the presence of another around them. But I wasn’t sure if that was it either. It seemed to be her, just her.

Suddenly, she stood up, and walked towards me. When she was almost face to face with me, she slipped her off the robe as it dropped to the floor with a faint thud, and gave me the shock of my life. SHE IS A HE!? I spent the next five minutes staring at his body in shock. Plain broad chest, slender form, nicely structured hip, and a fine-sized cock. I was contemplating on whether he was a hermaphrodite, but I figured that if I asked, it would probably anger him.
I looked back at his face after hearing him snicker; I was still in shock as I stared at him in awe.

“Well, don’t worry about it, you aren’t the first one. My mother said that she gave birth to me and raised me so that I would be a “woman” of her caliber, if not more. And mind you, she didn’t want a daughter; she wanted sons who could succeed her in beauty.” I looked at him as I contemplated. That was the most that he told me about himself out of the whole time that I’ve known her, I mean, him. Or, whatever.

He didn’t give me time to think as he slid onto the ground in a semi-kneeling, but not yet kneeling position to take my cock into his hands. Again, I was taken by surprise. He only raised one eye to look at me in a glance as he went to work. His soft lips curled around the tip of the head as he licked the slit. He opened his mouth a little wider to take in more of my cock and made me jerk. If I’ve known better, he is probably laughing at me in his head. His fingers traced my balls as he sucked on me. I wasn’t expecting him to just drop all of a sudden and give me a blow job, but, I’ve only known him for about three hours, which wasn’t enough time to even try to get acquainted with him, let alone the fact that he wouldn’t allow me to do so.

His soft and petite hands trailed down my thighs, leaving waves of warm sensations. I shuddered at his every touch. It felt as if Asami was cornering me again, but this time, without force. His fingers then crawled upwards, groping my left ass cheek as his other hand slipped between my legs. I felt his finger searching, swirling around my hole. Shit, don’t tell me that he is a seme.

“St…op…” I wasn’t exactly sure if he would try to top me, but I wasn’t about to let that happen. I pushed on his shoulder and he looked up at me as he let my cock slip out of his mouth. Having that warm and sweet sensation leaving me was a rather painful thing to bear, as my erection stood up in delight and impatience. I was turned on completely while he stayed composed and indifferent.

I was pissed off. I stared at him as I tried to catch my breath. He only looked at me with a smirk on his face as he licked off the light precum on his lips. I was enraged. I pushed him down and took his cock in my mouth. It was my first time doing something like that and I didn’t think I would be too good, but he didn’t even seem to be erecting! I tried harder as I bobbed my head and sucked on his cock. After what seemed like an eternity, he finally started gasping for air. My lips curled upwards as I felt a slight victory for finally making this ice man feel something, but just as I was about to celebrate my victory, he began to fondle my cock, which was still semi-hard from the blow job earlier.

“Ahh…” I couldn’t help but slip out a moan as his talented fingers worked on my erection. While his hand was being a little rough, I felt, fantastic. His cock slipped out of my mouth when I tried to get up, and I heard a sharp withdrawal of air. I would have laughed, but with one of his hands teasing my nipple and the other groping my erection, it was really hard to do anything but trying to breath and concentrate.

I leaned forward to kiss him and he happily welcomed me with a passionate kiss. I felt his tongue swirling inside me like the wind, taking the last bits of air and rationalism within me. I was completely turned on and I needed someone to calm me down. I grabbed both of his hands to hold in my grasp as I began to suck on his skin. White as porcelain and soft like silk; his skin was a great turn on. I’ve never once met anyone who had such nice skin. As I licked his body, I smelt a light fragrance, a mixture of the cherry blossoms and something else. It tasted really nice. I sucked on his skin, leaving red marks behind. I bit him a few times here and there, but I didn’t force him too much, nor did I try to do something he didn’t like.

As my pace intensified, his breathing became rapid as well. He started gasping for air and making faint noises. It sounded adorable enough for me to lose all my self control, but I still managed to constrain my desire. I held his erection and rubbed it faintly, making him whimper. I slid the other hand behind his back and caressed him softly downwards towards his butt cheeks. I slowly parted his legs and thrust a finger inside of him.

He grunted a little and said nothing more, but I can tell that this is his first time. I sighed and then done something else that I would never have done in my life if not for him. I leaned down and licked his hole as my finger worked with his tight heat. He was burning inside, I could feel him squirming and sucking my finger in. After making sure that he was wet enough, I slipped another finger inside him, then the third. He began to moan loudly and whimpered as I thrust my fingers into him.

After what seemed to be another eternity, he looked like he was ready. I could no longer hold back my urges as I held his legs apart and guided my burning erection towards his virgin hole. He shivered a little as the head entered, but didn’t make any sounds of pain. When I was fully seated within him, he started to draw a sharp breath of air, and I gave him a little time to adjust before thrusting.

“Ahh…” He screamed as I shoved my manhood in him and slid it out a little just to push it in deeper. He bloomed beneath me as he begged for more. Tears of ecstasy trailed down his lovely cheeks, as his hair flew like a black nightingale. I lost count of how many times we did it, but every time he came, that sweet cry of my name would make me feel as if this is where I belonged. His body, his warmth, and to begin right there by his side, it was all I ever wanted…

I woke up next morning with the ringing of my phone. I automatically turned my body to embrace the one that should have been right next to me, except there was no one there. My eyes popped open, and I felt a tingling sensation remaining on the side of the bed where he once was. I sat up with the continuous ringing of my phone, and reached my hand out to pick it up. But before I did, something else caught my eyes.

A small note was left beside my phone, and I think I knew who has left it there. I picked up the note with golden embroidery and a soft lavender frame, on it, was a lovely black rose and a beautifully handwritten word, Yuuki

All of a sudden, I recalled Marchesa, the name of an Asian woman who began a mafia in Germany which spread through the entire continent of Europe. The woman who had six different sons who all had special talents, and one who attained all her traits, Frances, also known as, Yuuki…

I don't know if this will continue or not, but i do have something from Yuuki's POV... *still contemplating*

Trying out something

2007-02-16T04:05:40Z

i just got a client, and i'm currently trying it out to see how this thing works, although i personally still like to post at lj itself, but i realized that ever since i ruined the format for my song fic, i've been depressed, and this one would actually keep my format happy, at least in the short run, and according to some of my other friends, it'll make me happy in the long run. I suppose that's a win win situation? *ponders* well, back to work. Good news though, my scanner sent me both of my Heavenly Bliss series drawings, which means that as soon as fierydragonsky finish the beta job on the first chapter, i can revise it and post it.
On further notes, i might be changing Heavenly Bliss a lot though. *moan* i forgot a really important chunck of something, maybe i can add that in chapter 2, but... i'm still working on my debates.
I'm currently thinking of posting a few random music, any ideas? I might be writing a few songfic in the future, but am a little out of ideas, at least for the time being... Any suggestions? *pokes 2metaldog* still there? didn't see you lately...

A songfic for the moment

2007-02-14T06:43:27Z

Title: Gotta Knock A Little Harder
Author: Jessie AKA Yuuki... AKA Mika (maybe i should stick with my name) BTW... self betad and finished all in 3 hours
Series: FMA (fullmetal alchemist)
Pairing: Roy Mustang X Maes Hughes
Rating: PG14 on average with implied sex (i didn't want to include smut)
Type: Songfic oneshot (No continuation, don't worry)
Disclaimer: I own nothing other than the idea behind it, and all rights goes to Yoko Kanno for the music, Mai Yamane for singing, and the actual creater of FMA :)

This is what i mean when i say i shouldn't get cocky and get the better of myself *sigh* I have still yet much work pilled on my desk. Mind you, a lab, 2 essays, 2 reports, 4 tests tomorrow, and 3 readings. But i ended up writing a songfic. *moans* No sleep yet again. Although i got to hand it to you, 2metaldog 's ideas for songfics are very fantastic. I just got the song flying by me when i was writing my philosophy papaer, and couldn't help but to post it. Hopefully someone out there will find it interesting. That would mean time not wasted *lol* But i think i've done enough whining... Here comes the post BTW, this is a FMA one between RoyXMaes. The ending is self explanatory unless you never watched the anime or seen the manga. Tell me, and i'll explain to you what happened, but hopefully it's not that hard to understand :)

Gotta Knock A Little Harder

~ Roy Mustang

Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference

"Hughes… I thought that if I made it back, then I could have been of some use…"
I stood at his grave site, wondering if I made the right decision. I couldn't have known that I would be back in time for his funeral if nothing else. Seeing him gone stirred an emotion that has never been inflicted upon me, or so I thought.
"Damn it Hughes, you were the one who told me that you're going to be the guy who works within the system and beneath me to get me all the way to the top. But now you go and get yourself killed in action and get raised two ranks up, surpass me, and become the Brigadier General. I don't know if I should congratulate you for your promotion or laugh at myself for the lost of a friend…"
Hughes, ever since that Ishbalian war, I've lost all means to live. You were the one who walked me through it, thick and thin… You were the one who promised to help me. Sometime alone that line, I think it became something more than friendship. Don't you agree, Maes?

Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference

Hughes… You once said that I was indifferent, but am I really? The time that we shared when we were in the army together, the time that we fought the Ishbalian War… Was it all a dream? I can't imagine it to end like this. Bitter kisses, comforting words, warm smiles, affectionate touches, loving partings… Why is it that I have to be the one to say goodbye? Hughes, don't you know that I'm not good with words? I'm afraid; I feel such emptiness within me that I did it again… I am still trying to remember the original transmutation circle, again. I know you would be enraged if you seen me right now, so why aren't you here yelling at me and telling me it's wrong? Hughes, stop me, stop this foolish, predictable fool who can't live without you…

Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in

Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in

I thought that when I locked the memories away, everything would have disappeared. The day when you told me that you were going to marry your girl friend, that time when you said goodbye… I thought I managed to put it all behind me and let it go. No one, no one was ever allowed to break through that barrier. I watched you get married and have kids, I watched you leaving my side, I promised myself that it wouldn't matter anymore, then why do I feel such unbearable agony when you are gone? You've left me so long ago that I am already dulled by that sensation; so now, why do I still feel such pain?

Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condition

Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession

I didn't give anyone another chance. I didn't need another idiot in my life. You were my warmth, my protection, and my shelter, but also, my pain and torture. I would never again let myself fall. I fear that if it were to happen again, I would never come back in one piece. I staggered through my work, raised my ranks with every chance I had. Never did I shed another tear after that Ishbalian War. I didn't want to ever let myself be fooled. I kept running away; I kept on hiding; I never stopped to look back because I wanted to get to the top so bad.
Maes… I miss the faint taste of cigar on your lips, the warmth that you gave me when it was raining… like that day in Ishbal, when I killed the child that struck fear within me. I yearn for your touches during cold nights, I lone for the whispers against my ears. Do you know how much my own alchemy hates me? I still remember that time when during Christmas Eve when I couldn't ever light a fire with my transmutation circle. You came over and lit the fire for me and snuggled me to sleep. That was the only Christmas that I ever remembered… All these years, I never told you how much I longed for you when you were away.

I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission

The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen

Maes… I know I'm weak. I don't even have the strength to face reality. I wouldn't care less if something went wrong, because all I want for now is to reach out and grab a hold of you. I kept everything out; I don't need anyone in my world. I rejected everything so that I don't have to face the reality that you wanted me to face. I didn't listen back then, and I still don't want to know. Listening to you talking to me about your daughter was forcing me to face the kind of reality that I didn't want to see. I want to hide from that truth even if it cost me my life.

The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire

The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire

"Hughes, I'm going to try to cross the line, and try it again. Once I do, it will be the last time I ever have to call you Hughes. So promise me that you'll be on the other side to greet me as you have always done."
I missed those days when I didn't have to address you by title, and I could just lie carelessly in your arms, holding on to you like a child, never having to worry, never having to grow up. I didn't want to make my own decisions, you made every one of them for me, and in the end, they were always right. Along the way, I think I've grow. Every man that I've slept with to climb up this latter of vicious hierarchy taught me something valuable about myself. Maybe I am indifferent, maybe I am a fool, and maybe I'm nothing more that a lost child who never grew up… Maes, I've fallen, deeper than I could ever imagine. Even if my sins are unforgivable, I still want to hold on to you so desperately…

Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existence

Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance

I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken

But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open

Did you know that I will break though this door if it’s the last thing I do? I want to tell you how much I love you. For once in my life, I want to stop running and face reality. Maes, won’t you be there to see me? I promise that this time I’ll learn to grow up. I’ll listen to you and take responsibilities. I know that I can never be as strong as you hoped, but I’m ready to take a chance and get myself to you…

Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door

And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door

I know you are on the other side. I got to break through this door and get to you. I want to see you, I need to see you, I yearn to grip on your shoulder and dig my nails into your skin and never let go. I’m willing to be condemned for my sins if I could just see you one last time. To feel your burning flesh upon mine and to feel your warm lips taking my breath away. My desire for you is reducing me into ashes… I can’t feel a thing besides the blazing sensation of wanting to get to you… Even if this transmutation fails, even if I’m destroyed alone the way, I’m willing to be consumed by the flaming punishment of hell.

Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door

I want to get to you Maes… I know I can do it… Please have a little confidence in me when I say that I’ll get myself to you. Please tell me that you love me again when I get to your side, even if it’s a lie, it’s better than this reality where I’m living in, because where you are, I see a heaven, I see a hope, but right now, there is nothing before my eyes other than eternal blazing nightmare of hell. Maes… If I get there in one piece, would you still hold me tight as you have always done before and whisper that you love me…?

Okay, here are the pictures that I thought very fitting

Last but not least... the music that started all (Honestly a very sarcastic one, knock a little harder *snickers* like that could get dead people back to life *snort*)
http://www.sendspace.com/file/dm38mu

mika_lav @ 2007-02-13T16:17:00

2007-02-14T00:18:22Z

Happy valentine's day. This was more or less and edited version rather than a drawing because i've been occupied with other things. But i think i will start the drawing of feilong soon enough :) just a little contributions from me with our lovely fei for the wonderful time of the year. *sends fei and S&M set* play nice hon *snickers*

mika_lav @ 2007-02-12T23:02:00

2007-02-13T07:06:16Z

No comment... pretty darn accurate if you ask me... as far as i'm concerned anyways...

Now to a different topic. From Saiyuki: Okay, anyone have a clue who the guy who is a Kami, a heritic against the heaven, and wears black cape thingy with red flames, who fights goku a lot, and has a golden eye and a blue eye is? I need this info for my chapter 4 of Heavenly Bliss :) I'm hoping that i can start on it before the thought of a plot disappear
Although i'm lacking sleep, i'm in a pervy porn mode >.>

Great News :)

2007-02-11T09:20:25Z

I have just learned that 2metaldog will not be having Goku smut in her BBE series. I am assuming that I won't be conflicting with her if i do that on my own. (On one note, i hate having similar things with other people if unnecessary, although I do make exceptions when i like something, for example, ViewFinder and Fullmetal Alchemist). However, as far as i'm concerned, after getting the suggestion from fierydragonsky i decided that i'll pick that one up if no one is doing it. I would rather use the original Journey to the West from the beginning, and write that instead, just about goku, because if any of you ever read it, then you would know that the first 40 some chapters are all about Goku and his life in heaven and the days from he was born and what he did. I rather elaborate on that, and skip to the end and make something up... *i smell plot in the air* But i'm hoping that this won't conflict with 2metaldog BBE, because that would really suck, so i'm waiting for her reply. But on a good note, for fierydragonsky at least (I think) i'm almost done with the fanfic between GokuXNataku *wooohooo* but if i get the response that my lovely sweet friend 2metaldog won't do Goku smut, or anything about before the journey or after (which i think the Saiyuki series haven't gotten to yet) I think i'm happy to do that :) Though on a very slooooooow bases, because that might be done self beta unless i get volunteers for beta job seeing as all my betas are doing other things that are more immediate and i don't want to over flow them with smut when they all hate seeing sex, especially yaoi smut. *sigh* Any one want to volunteer???